went back pps at 10 to help out Marcus w the presentation. he was so nervous lols. anyway we're gnna have a facilitator tee. and its a 2 days 1 night. 23, 24 nov. which is 2 weeks away.
next mon-fri i'll be away to bangkok :D travelling w aunties and sis hahaz..
and looking forward to transit camp! today had briefing. whole day out. tired seh. ate lunch w marcus and nick at pizza hut. $5.90 exclude GST. in the end use up all of $10 because nick also not enuf money. total $20.83
and aft tt like only 2+pm. meeting start at 330. so we went to fly kite? lol bought a plastic kite 50cent + string 50cent frm the hardware shop. flew the kite at hougang mrt the empty field there haha =x so paiseh. fly kite there. but quite okay lah. still can fly, im surprised! first time fly kite :DDD quite fun, except for the running part. prob cause not enuf wind bah ... sk there de anchorvale betta (:
and this year de camp a lot of sec1s.. aiyoh ): the older ones bo le, left a few. shawn, shimin, monika, bihsin, yuan ting, xinyi. my batch, all my class except zhao chen. yeah so sad, the older ones all gt school ): cant see them. think last year de ppl better haha!(: character nicer le. this year like all duno, then all soft soft ...
hehe but shawn's friend. jovian. caught both me and ______'s eye xD just one of the most handsome one them bah.. didnt see him last year, but he got experience o.o
shawn wearing a ring round his neck. o.o w gf? hahas, i still rmb last year... we two so paiseh. then avoid each other haha. idk what happened. HOW did kelvin they all know? o.o haha surprised.. tt kelvin teased me.
but its fun to get chased by a guy lah lol. for awhile. but not too long, else it'd be irritating(:
yeah another guy's iskanda. roy, and someone. idk his name. so looking forward to this camp haha...
yeppsie.. and was just asking nick and marcus during lunch, haha, what if a guy asked you out maybe watch show and stuff. go out lah. and its not like we are very close.
marcus said he could do that too. haha but thats his character lah. but nick said, sth wrong. LOL. yeah quite fishy ah. was shocked too :O (:
Outline. 14 November - Escape Theme Park w Youth 16-20 November - Bangkok 19 November - PPS transit camp temple game Briefing 21 November - PPS hockey carnival :D meet sk! sec5s + grad? 23, 24 November - PPS transit camp! WHOOHOO! (:
& when, cld i transfer? mr k was so fierce.. called me a capital I idot. zzz he doesnt knowlah. and mr ajay suggested. going jc first. at least study study, else go poly waste 1 year. and even tho can work first, but then aft working.. v hard to get back to study. and jc get you prepared for it ah. unless i go poly because family financially not so well to do. and he said jc save money on transport & sch fees hahaz (:
chao. sleepy and bored. all the best O's ppl.. God's always there for you(: go zul. wed last paper. till then. sarah, cheryl, gabriel, nigel, zul, baqir, etc. positive, amirul... dont give up. God loves you man. LYDIAH. 10/11/09. 1248AM.
Sunday, November 8
yo dudes. okay today Ps Andrew preached. and somehow was to me i guess... but i feel yeah, tho i can cont to stay in st nicks and grow stronger, i wanna move in the area of another purpose in sk. now i guess the other surface stuffs not bothering me now agn, but i dont want the same thing to happen the next 2 years. i want a change, fresh start. and do God's business.
God, you know.. i really dont know! and i just pray lor.. make my parents grant me the permission. tho right now, it may be that they dont understand me, what im thinking and stuff. but i juz pray that they'll allow me to do what i want lah. i know what im doing.
seriously, right now.. im willing to give up my studies? it doesnt really matter right now leh. yes lah, studies are impt. but, its right now a different matter altgt. God, my desire. renew the passion once again!
once again, God keep the door open i pray... i really wanna get in there. and study. and stuff. etc etc.
gonna try asking agn tonight oh God.. give me the strength & courage please (: i kno Your Spirit's always here w me, guiding me in everything! :D await the good news. tho i know not the future. I commit everything in Jesus' Name, Amen yeah!((:
btw, thinking of finding job haha. pastor anthony also said, lol. at least earn some income...
and tmr helping Marcus, tgt w Nicholas to do the presentation for the p6 tmr! :DDDDD hahahaaa. happy to help, and go back! hope i can see Mrs Lau. that guy ah, everything like ownself do de -.-
and i learnt a new word frm eh Nasri. gi mampos. go and die =.=
till then, chao. Alvin's been a great source of help. from God haha. helped me in making some stuff and seeking confirmation frm God. & im gonna write a letter tonite to Mr Ali, and gonna ask Regina to pass to him. i wanna go sk. and now its juz to seek my parents agreement.. LYDIAH. 8/11/09. 0614PM
Saturday, November 7
now,
Now, oh God, You've shown me, that You support my decision. thank You dear Lord! (: Now, oh God, i pray that You continue to keep the door open. Now, oh God, i pray that You would soften my parents heart & let them understand what i've got to do, and i've made my decision. Now, oh God, im still counting on You. Now, and forever, oh God. i'll always need You by my side.
the birds again. TWOs; and many flights of them.
and today, COME WHAT MAY, the video.. it was bout this guy, who wanted to transfer school.. to a smaller school, but had a great law team which won consistently. seems like my situation man, haha. similar. mine, yeah to a smaller compound prob, and a great hockey team too haha.
what i've learnt was that, haha. the girl, Rachel. she didnt allow any guy to send her home alone in a car, or let the guy touch her hand, or go into a relationship w a guy, unless he is serious, and that he would be her lifetime partner. thats what i learnt ah, and.. hmm (: somemore was talking w zakir ytd on bfs lol. great to fantasize, and be chased by a guy; thats what i think haha. but depends on which guy too man.
oh no how. dear God i know You have Your ways. help me.. dont want it to stop here after so much. i pray they'd understand and just let me go... they are looking on the surface.. yes i know, obey ur parents. but ... help God. yet i will not despair... i know that You oh Lord... can do things which may seem impossible. i realllly pray they'd understand. now its them... i've made the decision oh Lord. i've seen ur signs. i want to trust, that i oh Lord.. did not make them up. and what i've seen is not, surface. there is a much greater thing.. not just to sk alone. I PRAY! its not just the studies now. not just the friends. not just the cca. not just, the surface....
Friday, November 6
thank You GOD!:D
heyyo dudes. okay, quite tired ehz duno why. ran slightly more than 30 mins today. 10 rounds i think.. = 4 km 30 mins.. haha. the last 10 mins felt super long.
anway jude didnt come. mother-in-law passed away. heard he was thinking of going ___. better not say! nobody knows for now, except Mr Ali and his friends i guess o.o
anyway yepps, lotsa cool stuff.. tho i didnt receive the 5 msgs like ytd, errr Thursday i mean. but i didnt receive the 5 msgs on Friday either. only Nasri sent me one in the early morning lols.
and yeah talked about the birds thing the other day alrdy. oh one part havent talked. you kno usually you'll only see prob 1 or 2 flights of birds passing by? but i saw like 4-5 flights! i thank God man. i wasam so happy...
and in the morn before i went out, reading bible. read one verse on some LIGHT stuff, like you know light of the world that kind of thing. told God, if you support me to go SK, i'll count 7 lights. that kind of thing. tho i counted only like 3 or 4... just now at night, rather YTD alrdy, i was reading the book of Zephaniah, and came across this part whereby 7 lights were seen on the golden lampstand!! SEVEN LIGHTS!!!! superbly cool isnt it.. to me at least.
and tho i prayed tt it wouldnt rain the whole day, and when i reached the busstop at st nicks, there'd be heavy rain in particular, it wasnt that heavy to me. but it was raining ltr on.
and the teacher and 2 friends asked me on my decision and why i didnt go... so, uhuh.. haha..
yeah and told God.. things in TWOs. on the way home in 132, i saw TWO 147, and TWO 62 !!!! i was superbly happy... (: but more happy at the 7 lights. haha.
and jessie left her hockey stick in the bus. pray she gets it back.
dear God, one more sign before the final say oh Lord. thank you for supporting my decision ((; i am very very very happy! :D praise the Lord! i pray, that even as i make my choice, and that You will support me, that during the 2 years in my walk whereever, (in sk :D), that You would continue to show me the signs of Your confirmation. In Jesus' Name i pray, AMEN! :D
OFF dude!
LYDIAH. 7/11/09. 0120AM.
Thursday, November 5
await;
hey dudes... currently waiting for God's assuredness, confirmation if i should transfer to sk. 5 messages from sk ppl, including Mr ali and zul. i no doubt that God can do thaat.
and earlier on, before dinner.. i had His confirmation to go sk lehz. the time's, the day's not over. i do not wanna just stop there and discontinue my faith and trust in God whom i trust so much! dear God, i can only pray and wait. the wait often seems long, but i know that You'll answer us.. in Your time.
was all on the birds. 2 birds to sk 1 bird, stay in st nicks. here and there... i was glad, to sk.
tmr, i was telling God. if nobody asks, not even the cca mates, teachers, or coach... it'd be to stay in st nicks.
and, the whole day dont rain. and if i reach the busstop, wait a while, it rains. to sk.
very much what i wouldnt want to have the answer is to stay in st nicks. dear God... save me i pray. i hope that You would support me in my decision. I really want to go theree..
the 2 flowers to bloom tmr morning. the 2 birds to land on those 2 stalks. tomorrow.
hey God, im really sorry. but i just wanna have ur confirmation, and its our human nature to be doubtful and stuff i guess. BUT I REALLY WANT TO TRUST YOU that you would answer me. i believe oh God. i wait. i know that nothing is impossible with You. You make the impossible possible!
I hope. I pray. I await. for Your answer.
I know You sense my sorrows. I know Your there with me. Always.
the wait may seem long. i guess its prob because i am, we humans are impatient. then teach me to have the patience then, oh Lord.
hey God. i know You see the time i spent with You, to pray, to tell You my troubles, and... my wish. dear God, i pray! oh how i pray, only You see it! You know how I really really earn to have it. I pray that You grant me my desire...
Now studies is not my top priority. Its not the school. Im sure i can do equally well with You always here at my side. I know...
DEAR LORD, I CRY OUT TO YOU! come rescue me, and give me a little more joy by granting me my desire, my wish.
Tuesday, November 3
TEAR DOWN THE WALLS. & ARMS OPEN WIDE.
stand firm, restoration
While the devil is lying to you, saying that all you’ve done is in vain, that you’ll never see your expectations fulfilled, God in his glory is preparing a greater blessing. He has better things in store, beyond anything you could think or ask. We’re not to listen to the enemy’s lies any longer. Instead, we’re to rest in the Holy Spirit, believing him to fulfill the work of making us more like Christ. And we are to rise up from our despair and stand on this word: “Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.” (1 Corinthians 15:58).
this was frm my previous blogpost.. on Tuesday, Oct 27 hey manz, why why whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. was so determined and all ready to move off, yet like backfired leh. i think the devil's trying to make me fall down; stumble me. i really really really wanna TRUST GOD. I DONT WANNA DOUBT HIM.
another preevious blogpost on Sunday, Nov 1
and He wants me to stay in st nicks, but i talked to Him.. i transfer, yes there may be somehow some difficulties that i face. but i have a purpose there: to save my friends.
God i believe. i trust, and i'll get into it. though its hard, but i'll say now that i'll get in. i wouldnt say that 'unless you close the door'. because, i've talked to you. amen. i wanna trust in You. Plan A - frm Your Word, and not Plan B - signs&miracles
from God's Word, it would be.-what i've received.
John 14:1 "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me (Jesus).."
John 14:12-14 "I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me (Jesus) will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it."
John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."
1 Thessalonians 5:16-24 Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. Do not put out the Spirit's fire; do not treat prophecies with contempt. Test everything. Hold on to good. Avoid every kind of evil. May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and though. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it.
Eunice msged me this verse: Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Him who gives me strength." & its only when God gives me strength, then will I be able to go through circumstances. without His strength, yes i may say, just believe, and you will get it or whatever. but you still need God's strength and help.
you know frm his word, all these verses... even what i cannot do, HE can make it happen. HE CAN MAKE ME DO IT! HE CAN ENABLE ME TO DO IT! HE CAN GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO DO IT! in Jesus' Name, amen!
even this vid, frm Hillsong's latest album: Faith, Hope, Love, you know TEAR DOWN THESE WALLS. even frm ARMS OPEN WIDE... My whole life is Yours I give it all Surrendered to Your Name And forever I will pray Have Your way Have Your way
LYDIAH. 3/11/09. 0255PM.
Monday, November 2
I FEEL SO ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH....... ITS ANNOYING.
you know, i made my decision. but yet time and time again, am rocked by other comments and opinions. yes i know i shouldnt be swayed by them!!! but i just... I FEEL ANNOYED.ARGH.
what for man? I DONT KNOW!?
stop stop, i'd better stop telling ppl. affecting my decision, which i had alrdy made.
hey man, God GOD God... please. im struggling yet once again. reign down and rescue meeeeeeeeeeeeee. "i dont care what people will say" - Running After You by Planetshakers.
i really need a text to pipe my feelings up.
off-ed.
Sunday, November 1
thanks, and.
thanks friends... for being there for me man. zaidi, jin kai, rasey. zul. liangyi. jingwen. janelle.
even tho you all maybe just heard my troubles, but its a load off my chest really. but hey God, i know that Your Spirit's always there w me yeah.. thanks lots really.
argh lol, just gt scolded in msn by my sis for wearing her fred perry shoe hehe.. she wasnt home, then going to Jiawen's bdae party. 830am go piano class in morn > 11am church > 630-10pm bdae party leg also pain becos her shoe size small...
glad that you know, hey jinkai and zaidi understands. zul doesnt know my prob right now.. but yupp. zaidi suggested: jogging and playing soccer. soccer for agility. he jogs 1 hour everyday. hardworking dude, his effort pays off.
lots to say, but dont feel like posting.
liangyi's spoken to me on saturday. im really emotional on these kind of things haha... cried. sometimes i dont wanna cry but cant help it. is it the pressure and struggle thats so great? idk.
today yeah sunday service... cried during worship ah. also aft that. when ps arumnai praying.
you know, spoke to God. i saw myself kneeling down and crying. and then i was talking to God too. and He wants me to stay in st nicks, but i talked to Him.. if i transfer, yes there may be somehow some difficulties that i face. but i have a purpose there: to save my friends.
amen yeah. God i believe. i trust, and i'll get into it. though its hard, but i'll say now that i'll get in. i wouldnt say that 'unless you close the door'. because, i've talked to you. amen. i wanna trust in You. Plan A - frm Your Word, and not Plan B - signs&miracles
LYDIAH. 1/11/09. 1041PM.
Thursday, October 29
what to do...?
1 Thessalonians 4:16-14
Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. Do not put out the Spirit’s fire; do not treat prophecies with contempt. Test everything. Hold on to the good. Avoid every kind of evil. May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. The one who calls you is faithful and He will do it.
Hey God,
I really don’t know leh.
Gideon told me to pray, and if I feel peaceful then do it.
I don’t know if the voice in me is saying yes, or no.
Because, I don’t know if it’s the devil.
I cannot differentiate right now..
Im afraid that im just listening to what I want to listen and am ignoring ur words.
To be away from You is the most terrible and struggling thing ever!
My mum said that she thinks it better to continue in st nicks since its affiliated to catholic jc and stuff… direct bus, whatever. But even then, that’s in the later part, and I don’t even know if I wanna go to cjc. Its far too.
Though its hard yeah I know I still must cont to seek the Lord for directions.
Though that I may choose and have my own decisions, but the final decision still lies in the Lord, if He would approve it.
Whats the reason for transferring, people ask.
Studying environment, CCA.
Hey man…
Next week back to school trg, dear Lord you show me the way…
I see two paths ya know.
#1 The st nicks one is kinda straight, with rugged edges. But the path’s straight. #2 Sengkang’s is narrow, windy, filled with thorns and obstacles. Its hard, I feel that’s what God’s telling me. But who knows, because Im sure that you know even if you make ur own decisions, and drift away, the Lord will eventually bring you back.. And I don’t know, but in sk, perhaps that’s where my future lies, to spread of God’s Love. I’ve always wanted and prayed for my Malay friends. There’s so many of them out there!!!
My father had this spiritual warfare thing ytd.
He was conscious but was struggling.
Said that he saw sth dark, some shadow, had a little light or sth.
Wanted to call out and stuff but couldn’t.
Asked him more bout it during lunch when he came back, and yeah he said, maybe its got to do sth with me… struggling or what.
Hey God, hey God.
I know u hear my cry for help.
Psalms 55
1 Listen to my prayer, O God,
do not ignore my plea;
2 hear me and answer me.
My thoughts trouble me and I am distraught
3 at the voice of the enemy,
at the stares of the wicked;
for they bring down suffering upon me
and revile me in their anger.
4 My heart is in anguish within me;
the terrors of death assail me.
5 Fear and trembling have beset me;
horror has overwhelmed me.
6 I said, "Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest-
7 I would flee far away
and stay in the desert;
Selah
8 I would hurry to my place of shelter,
far from the tempest and storm."
9 Confuse the wicked, O Lord, confound their speech,
for I see violence and strife in the city.
10 Day and night they prowl about on its walls;
malice and abuse are within it.
11 Destructive forces are at work in the city;
threats and lies never leave its streets.
12 If an enemy were insulting me,
I could endure it;
if a foe were raising himself against me,
I could hide from him.
13 But it is you, a man like myself,
my companion, my close friend,
14 with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship
as we walked with the throng at the house of God.
16 But I call to God,
and the LORD saves me.
17 Evening, morning and noon
I cry out in distress,
and he hears my voice.
18 He ransoms me unharmed
from the battle waged against me,
even though many oppose me.
19 God, who is enthroned forever,
will hear them and afflict them—
Selah
men who never change their ways
and have no fear of God.
22 Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall.
23 But you, O God, will bring down the wicked
into the pit of corruption;
bloodthirsty and deceitful men
will not live out half their days.
But as for me, I trust in you.
LYDIAH. 26/10/09. 1105PM.
THANK YOU ALL (:
hey thanks everyone yeah. for the concern frm you all? which i dont really get from the other side. thank you Mr Ali for the encouragement, even sending me a sms! (: really appreciate it, yeah Mr Ali understands. thanks manz, at least now i neednt worry if its too late. take my time to think that serious decision over... and ask my parents.
ytd yeap, i didnt go sch trg again, went sk trg. trained w them. merill's set is size L, LARGE. SO BIG!!!! thought could wear... in the end it was seriously so big, cannot. and i dont like the strap for the foot. so hard to wear.
now playing Bejeweled Blitz on Facebook lol -.-
yuppies, and sn teacher called home ytd to ask why i wasnt there. mother said i was tired, and teacher wanted a letter. hahaha my mum said that she didnt know what to say! haha. but yupp, i am tired.. and want a break. thats the truth what, and is what im gonna tell them.
haha Mr Ali was very funny. because zaidi was also there when i was talking to Mr Ali. and then Mr Ali talked to zaidi also, haha he now join back YOG. haha, zaidi said tt the standard was too low. LOL. but he's a good chap lah. has the skills to make it big. and then, Mr Ali talked finish, and said, "now, back to you." hahahaaa. carrying a hockey stick also.
anyways, yeap had a great time playing w them. laughed like crazy in the match. haha! muscle ache, at least isnt so bad. as fun as src, but more fun since i know all of them. haha. and not so runny type haha! but unfit lah, cant run all the way haha.
yeahs so tmr not going sch trg again. last day of break. next week start going back liao. mr ali ask me still cont come for sk trg. but i guess tmr i'll be going. but im still deciding if i shld play. thought of listening music, sleeping, reading my bible.
and thought wanna bring some cake for them, make today. but then yepp, must be Halal ... so changed to rotiprata + hotdog? haha at least its halal. hmm.............
this post is like delayed for one over hour. SO SIAN! LYDIAH. 29/10/09. 0409PM stuck between 2 crossroads, though leaned more towards my choice yepps, and haha ever since i told my parents, seemed like they thought i kena hurt by my sch ppl. and then my mum's like quite concerned w me. lol, been sleeping early and listening to music. in the end fell aslp w the music still playing.
One thing i've got to say:
i've experienced God's greatness and power in my life.
He has totally touched my life.
I've experienced His Power. His Fire.
He's real, He's my Saviour, He answers my prayers.
1• PSLE Aggregate, 4 points to reach target though
2• SRC
3• National Goalkeeper
4• Worked at Ps Diana's Shop last year
5• Worked at Loud Fest 19th - 21st March
Wishes
• Prayer Group in School*
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• Friends getting saved
• Mission trips!
• Results improve
• Play the keyboard as im worshipping.
• Be able to take those ultra super-nice pictures using those big cameras :D the nature is so beautiful; God's creation!
• Travel over the whole world, not in 80 days though
• Work part-time during holidays, hopefully
• Exchange programmes//Overseas trip!
